Sudden silence

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  STOOD SILENT, IT SEEMED WHAT I JUST HEARD WAS NEVER MEANT TO BE HEARD ,was never meant for my ears. Even words failed to express my disapproval .For those thirty seconds that i stood silent life recapped showing those invaluable moments spent with her, those thirty seconds showed me my what i was about to lose, those were the only beautiful moments in my life. A life full of misery and misfortunes ,she was the the cherry that my mom used to say one gets when he manages to drink all the humiliation, the  taunting, the insults, the misfortunes  with a smile.
  There are some moments in life where you wished you weren’t the guy in focus ,you were may be the guy who would be sitting on another bench laughing at the way you jumbled up your memorized poem, may be the guy who sees your  car being towed off and parking miles away from yours, or may be that guy who would be laughing when he sees a car splashing mud on your clothes, or may be that guy who comes dressed up in his best white clothes  hugging you  and saying “may her soul rest in peace, everything would be alright”. There are some moments in life where you wished you weren’t YOU.
  It was certainly one of those moments where i really wanted to swap my life with some other guy in the crowd. It was finally my tears which came out to show the signs of  a broken heart, a broken soul, a broken me.It came down slowly ,tasting and absorbing each cell on its way taking in the pain , it moved with an increased vigor, a  madness of losing itshelf.

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